This post is a couple weeks in the making but I was determined to make it just right. This is very personal to me and it is only half way fashion related but bare with me. It is the first time I am truly opening up about myself. As of late I feel like people are quick to judge on first glance without knowing the back story. Since starting at UCLA a year and a half ago, I started having health problems. A time when I was forced to be on my own, away from my parents, distancing myself and my loved ones with a three hour drive. After a couple months at school, I came home with a surprise. My family told me I looked different and my beloved jeans were slowly slipping off my hips. My muscular, athletic build was deteriorating into a unrecognizable, boney version of myself. I felt different as well. I was weak, fatigued, and had incomparable digestive issues. After seeking help from professionals, tireless nights searching the internet from my mother, and a need for answers, I was diagnosed with a rare parasite. For the last year it has been a part of me, unwilling to leave. I lost over thirty pounds in six months, with the majority lost in the last month before diagnosis. This was a hard time for me, as I was forced to be on my own, succeed in school, deal with doctor visits, while still trying to incorporate my love of fashion in my life. I felt alone, as I thought that opening up about my health issues and having a parasite would effect how my new friends would think of me. A person infected and frail, with somehow this infection being my fault. However, still a size down from my previous jean, I see a road to recovery and a healthy future. My dusty stack of jeans, cords, and cut offs are close to being back into my outfit rotation.
Not everything is solemn, through this whole process I rediscovered my love for shoes and accessories. They truly are one size fits all, which became my motto for justifying a pricey purchase. No matter how much weight you lose or gain, that cashmere scarf or those leather boots will always be your friend. Writing a blog and wanting to continue posting new, different outfits has been hard, especially when half your wardrobe all of a sudden becomes baggy and literally swallows you whole. I am wanting to replenish my bottoms selection but I feel uncertainty in my size, as I do not know what I will be a month down the road. But, cheer’s to accessories, shoes, and most importantly health. As I have learned health comes first and shoes come in a close second.
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Blouse: Bellatrix / Pants: Joie / Shoes: 10 Crosby Derek Lam / Blazer: Necessary Objects / Clutch: Vintage / Jewelry: Vintage
