This post is a couple weeks in the making but I was determined to make it just right.  This is very personal to me and it is only half way fashion related but bare with me.  It is the first time I am truly opening up about myself.  As of late I feel like people are quick to judge on first glance without knowing the back story.  Since starting at UCLA a year and a half ago, I started having health problems.  A time when I was forced to be on my own, away from my parents, distancing myself and my loved ones with a three hour drive.  After a couple months at school, I came home with a surprise.  My family told me I looked different and my beloved jeans were slowly slipping off my hips.  My muscular, athletic build was deteriorating into a unrecognizable, boney version of myself.  I felt different as well.  I was weak, fatigued, and had incomparable digestive issues.  After seeking help from professionals, tireless nights searching the internet from my mother, and a need for answers, I was diagnosed with a rare parasite. For the last year it has been a part of me, unwilling to leave.  I lost over thirty pounds in six months, with the majority lost in the last month before diagnosis.  This was a hard time for me, as I was forced to be on my own, succeed in school, deal with doctor visits, while still trying to incorporate my love of fashion in my life.  I felt alone, as I thought that opening up about my health issues and having a parasite would effect how my new friends would think of me.  A person infected and frail, with somehow this infection being my fault. However, still a size down from my previous jean, I see a road to recovery and a healthy future.  My dusty stack of jeans, cords, and cut offs are close to being back into my outfit rotation.

Not everything is solemn, through this whole process I rediscovered my love for shoes and accessories.  They truly are one size fits all, which became my motto for justifying a pricey purchase.  No matter how much weight you lose or gain, that cashmere scarf or those leather boots will always be your friend.  Writing a blog and wanting to continue posting new, different outfits has been hard, especially when half your wardrobe all of a sudden becomes baggy and literally swallows you whole.  I am wanting to replenish my bottoms selection but I feel uncertainty in my size, as I do not know what I will be a month down the road.  But, cheer’s to accessories, shoes, and most importantly health.  As I have learned health comes first and shoes come in a close second.

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Blouse: Bellatrix /  Pants: Joie  /  Shoes: 10 Crosby Derek Lam  /  Blazer: Necessary Objects /  Clutch: Vintage  /  Jewelry: Vintage